These past couple of days have been really hard for me. A person that I became very close with over the last couple of months or so has left me high and dry without a reason as to why. It's a very weird feeling talking to someone everyday for so long and before you know it, they're gone. I don't think I deserve this, maybe I do. Who knows?. She says "I'm doing this for you and one day you'll understand". I can't even to begin to think what that may mean. If i do, it will only make me more crazy than I already am.
I wish it didn't have to be like this and I wish she would at least be an adult about this and tell me why she's made this decision. She owes me that much. I don't know why this is impacting my life so much right now. I guess because I cared about her. I think I would be inhumane for me not to be hurt by this. All I know is, I don't wanna feel this anymore. I want my friend back and I want to be happy. You can call me lame for typing this but this will be the only way I can vent and maybe pull through this. I'm hoping you miss me too and one day we can fix this.